The difference is the amount of stress and the sheer terror that sometimes accompanies the purchase of a new house and the immediate, and chilling, obligation to get your current house in shape and on the market. I have spent the day alternating between stressed out, temple throbbing, chest pounding anxiety and fatalistic acceptance that I am slowly pushing down a major commitment which will absolutely, no question about it, be a big mistake. Why a big mistake? Because at least right now, in my current house, I understand and appreciate what I don't like and what is not suitable. In a new house, in a new town, and in the state next door, all that is unforeseen and unappreciated. Besides, I think that deep down I really loathe change. Also, I pretty much hate debt and debt is a new best buddy.

Hence my silence today. Too much time being freaked out and unhappy. I have also done no work today of any kind professionally speaking.

Did I mention that we found a house that we really loved this weekend and can't quite afford but are planning to buy anyway? I may have left that out.

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1 "alternating between stressed out, temple throbbing, chest pounding anxiety and fatalistic acceptance that I am slowly pushing down a major commitment which will absolutely, no question about it, be a big mistake." You are describing the exact emotional process I went through with this apartment. Perhaps that's why I still live here 15 years later?

Posted by: michele at March 28, 2005 06:01 PM (ht2RK)

2 deep breath a long...slow...deep...breath

Posted by: standing naked at March 28, 2005 06:51 PM (6FCAy)

3 "...we found a house that we really loved this weekend and can't quite afford but are planning to buy anyway?" Isn't that the American way? Congrats, RP. Can I have your old one?

Posted by: Howard at March 28, 2005 07:00 PM (+uhx9)

4 Find your happy place, RP. It's somewhere in the Berkshires, right?

Posted by: Jim at March 29, 2005 10:01 AM (tyQ8y)

5 Howard, you really want the old one? I'd be happy to talk about it. Michelle, I think you know how I feel at this point. No, Jim, I don't think I have a happy place anymore. Maybe bed. With the covers pulled over my freaking head.

Posted by: RP at March 29, 2005 10:53 AM (LlPKh)

6 If it's your dream home... go for it! What are the Berkshires? You can tell I don't know much about da city. :-P

Posted by: Hannah at March 29, 2005 02:13 PM (0d7ig)

7 Oop! Can't believe I missed this post. So, where are ya headed?!!!

Posted by: Tuning Spork at March 29, 2005 11:06 PM (shq3M)

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